Happy Brain, Happy Body

 I'm thankful for: Being alive. I may not be in the best head space right now, but I'm thankful that I can breathe. That I can get up and do things. That I can experience a huge array of positive and negative emotions. Yes, the negative emotion I am feeling right now is not the best, but I need to be able to feel the negative in order for me to feel the positive. I'm about to drink a tall glass of water and head to the gym and feel better. I'm glad I am able to do that for myself. 

 I'm in a brain fog. Brain foggggg

 My boyfriend wanted to go out to the bar with some friends. I really didn't feel like going, so I told him I didn't want to go. Normally I'm a pretty codependent person so I would go with my boyfriend practically everywhere, but I have to start thinking about my mental health, my physical health, and my finances. Does going to a bar help me with achieving my goals? No. Will drinking help me with my mental health or physical health? No. Should I really be surrounding myself with tipsy, drunk people? No. Do I even want  to go? No. I'm trying to save as much money as possible and do what I can at home. If I play my cards right, I can get my credit card paid off in 8-9 months, which will help tremendously with my finances. If I get my finances under control, that means I don't have to stress out so much about money. I can actually start saving up for a house, or my own car, or even go back to college and pursue a less stressful career. It does suck that the world does ...

 I'll keep it vague, but basically, I sent out an email I wasn't supposed to. I upset quite a few people. And now I feel terrible. The end. I've been beating myself up over it, but I have to forgive myself. I've done my apologizing, I did everything I could, so now I just need to take a deep breath and wait it out. It'll be ok. It'll be ok. It'll be ok.

 Thank God it's FRIDAYY. I really feel like I need some time for myself. A break. I realize with how social my boyfriend is, I really don't have a lot of home time. And combining with how I try to upkeep with my own friends, it just makes a very draining situation for an introvert. My goal for this weekend is self-care, self-care, self-care. And also rejuvenating activities. Too bad Washington State has the worst weather right now with all the rain, so laying out in a field of roses isn't an option at the moment.  What can I do to relax? Hmm.. maybe some guided meditation. Or my friend was asking about hot yoga, so I may just do that. I do remember feeling quite pure and zen after hot yoga. Daily affirmations: I am really quite smart, aren't I? Like, in a self-reflective kind of way. I have pretty high EQ. I'm an empath. but I'm also quite logical, organized, driven, and I actually can understand concepts. I problem solve and I work fast! I think that's why ...

 I think I've got it! The secret to conquering overeating has really nothing to do with the specifics, like calorie-counting, whether you feel full after that salad, depriving yourself of sugars at the end of the night.  It really comes down to trying to get down to the origin  of why  it is you overeat. I'm not talking about overeating because you're stressed, or anxious. I'm talking about trying to figure when, in your young life, did you start to associate food with feeling better. Once we get to that point, you can unravel those feelings and finally face the child in you that's been neglected this whole time. I discovered for myself that food was a coping mechanism for the neglect I was feeling from my parents. I post more information about it here , but it was only then did I realize that I was never actually hungry. It was a behavior that has been ingrained in me since I was younger - to eat to feel better, ESPECIALLY at night time. Once you get down to the OR...