I didn't want to go out to the bars tonight, and that's OK

 My boyfriend wanted to go out to the bar with some friends. I really didn't feel like going, so I told him I didn't want to go. Normally I'm a pretty codependent person so I would go with my boyfriend practically everywhere, but I have to start thinking about my mental health, my physical health, and my finances.

Does going to a bar help me with achieving my goals? No.

Will drinking help me with my mental health or physical health? No.

Should I really be surrounding myself with tipsy, drunk people? No.

Do I even want to go? No.

I'm trying to save as much money as possible and do what I can at home. If I play my cards right, I can get my credit card paid off in 8-9 months, which will help tremendously with my finances. If I get my finances under control, that means I don't have to stress out so much about money. I can actually start saving up for a house, or my own car, or even go back to college and pursue a less stressful career.

It does suck that the world does revolve because of money, so I would rather learn to play the game and be good at it.

Second order of business, I need to start thinking about my physical and mental health. Yes, I don't want to feel like a disappointed my partner into not going out, but do I actually need to go out? Absolutely not. I already went out twice this week and I'm even preparing for a hiking trip Sunday and maybe a date night out tomorrow, so I've socialized enough this week. I already went out Wednesday, Thursday, and then Saturday and Sunday. That's too much. I need to take a break.

I'm a natural introvert and I would much rather spend my waking hours doing something constructive for myself. I'm actually looking at all the trash and clothes around my room and it's giving me quite high anxiety. I can't relax if the environment I'm in is messy.

And drinking alcohol is, like, the worst thing you can do if you're trying to lose weight. I actually ended up stress eating on pasta so I'm about 200 calories over my goal, so my plan was to get some cardio and sweating out so I feel better. I'm actually quite tired, but I think I need this for the sake of my sanity. I don't know if I'm going to be able to burn 200 calories, but drinking copious amounts of water, forgiving myself for going over, and planning out my day tomorrow will help me.

No more pity parties! Nope nope nope. Gotta stop that. I so got this. 

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