I think it’s time for me to get real with myself

Losing weight is going to be the hardest thing I ever do, and I have to understand that. Conceptually, losing weight is super easy. It basically boils down to calories in and calories out. When I was young, it was so easy for me to lose weight because all I had to do was just go to school and go home. But now, I have a big time job, a serious relationship, debt galore, mental issues, etc. All of this is keeping me more and more reliant on the dopamine associated with food. 

I need to try to change my way of thinking. Maybe instead of being reliant on food, I can start using cardio or… something. Something that will make me feel good without ruining my body in the process.

Maybe… yoga? But whatever it is, I can’t just have food being left around. it’s too hard for me to manage!

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