Turns out that going to be a bar and eating chicken, pizza, and fries wasn't a good idea

 Lesson learned: only order one main dish at a restaurant, not two.

I was very hungry yesterday and I ended up ordering a huge slice of cheese pizza, and one batch of chicken strips and fries. Honestly, I should have just ordered one (probably the chicken strips and fries). I would love to get mad at my boyfriend for being so social and inviting me out to bars to eat, but I can't really blame him because I can't stifle him the joy of hanging out with people. I don't want him to feel guilty for being social. I am the one that needs to be in control, even though it's going to FEEL SO GOOD if I throw all the blame on him.

And for what, right? Just my crippled ego.

I weighed in at 213.0 lbs today, which isn't terrible. At least I didn't gain and I did calculate all my choices and attempted to stay under 2100 calories today. My "whoopsies" include grabbing one tiny chocolate peanut butter cup before bed, taking an extra bite of pretzel at the bar. But hey, at least I didn't go for the chips.

Oh I also dug into some leftover food in the fridge, just a bite or two. Yea... thinking about it now, that probably pushed me in the 2300 range. Gosh dangit, oh well. Just have to adapt and try again today.

I should definitely dump all those chocolates that are sitting on the counter. They're definitely not good for me.

Positive affirmations: I am strong, confident, sexy, responsible, a great partner, a great son, a great friend. I am self-efficient, self-aware, self-loving. A role model. I'm fucking amazing.

Let's have a good day!

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